Day 779

February 21, 2008 was the day our world caved in. The day began as normal as any other day, but it didn't end that way. We woke as a family of 5, but before sunset that number was reduced by 40%...sorta. We are still and will always be a family of 5 but for now only Kayla and Alicia are living perfection. I remember family and friends consoling us with "I can't imagine what you are going through." My response became and continues to be to this statement, "I can't imagine imagining it." There are so many days that it seems like a dream.

For the first few months after everything happened, I could tell you how many weeks had passed since the "accident" (there are no accidents with God). Now the time just sails along. I was thinking about the time span this week as I was preparing to share a little of our story during our revival. This past Thursday would have been 111 weeks since everything happened. That equals 777 days. Pretty cool number Biblically speaking. Which puts us at Day 779 today. Each day God is faithful. He is constant. Do you know how I know? Each day still has 24 hours. Each day the sun still rises. Each day the sun will set. Each day is a blessing, some blessings more noticeable than others, but a blessing nonetheless. Each day His mercies are made new. Each day His grace is poured out without measure. Each day He reminds me that He loved me before there was time and He'll continue to love me even after time ceases to matter. Because of this eternal love, a plan was set into motion that included February 21, 2008 when He knew He would escort His and our beloved daughters into His everlasting presence. I still can't wrap my finite brain around that concept. But just as constant as the sun, so is His love, mercy, grace, protection and HOPE in our lives. Regardless of what may happen today, I have this constant!