Here We Go Again

For those of you who follow this blog, thanks! And you have seen this theme before if you'll go back a couple of months. I keep coming back to this question of why. But this why isn't a why going back 2 and 1/2 years. This why is a gnawing why with all that we've been through recently, why do things still get me down? Little things and big things. Nothing as big as losing Kayla and Alicia but big in the scope of our daily lives. My trust isn't child-like although at times it seems childish. I am so easily distracted...squirrel. So easily drawn away. "Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it. Prone to leave the God I love." That's me. But the verse continues, "Here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it. Seal it for Thy courts above." That court seems very distance although I already have family and friends there. Their purpose is simple...worship their Creator and His Son who paid the price for them to even approach the Throne. Simple time...simple thought. Makes me homesick for a home I've never seen before. "I close my eyes and I see your face. If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place. Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow. I've never been more homesick than now."