Seven Year Ache

I've been thinking about what to write on here even in my sleep or in the in-between awake and asleep this morning. I've not blogged as much as when this thing started in 2010. Guess I feel as if I don't have anything of significance to say. 

Here we are at the 7 year mark of our world being changed. Our reality and the girls' reality both changed that day but I believe their transformation was a lot more intense. They became who they were always created to be. They are the complete fullness of themselves as God intended our lives to be before the Fall. The only other people to experience this on earth are Adam and Eve and they traded it for a piece of fruit. Hard to imagine trading perfection for something so common. But we continue to do it every day. Many times our temptations are even more menial. 

All I know is Kayla and Alicia are experiencing true life and we're wading around in this thing we call 'life'. We do get caught up in all this world's trappings. We long for the day when our faith is made sight.

These 7 years have brought a lot of blessings and a few sorrows. Even now, many of our friends are mourning the death of a precious 17 year old girl who is now free from Cystic Fibrosis. She, for the first time in years, is breathing freely, breathing deeply and the air she breathes is nothing less than heavenly. 

We are now at the point where the girls have been away more than half of Jeromy's life. He still remembers, he remembers more than I do at times. He still cries. Not only today but random days throughout the year simply because he misses his sisters. I see such a real faith in his eyes. I pray he never loses that. 

I thought that the more time that passed the easier their loss would be but it seems to be the opposite. We say time heals all hurts but it's not time that heals, it's God. And that happens only when we allow God to heal us regardless of the amount of time it takes. 

I still see their pictures daily and remember how they were and can't imagine how they truly are today. But I have an undying hope that we will be reunited again some day; until that day we walk by faith.