Snow

O God, I sense that You're there. I sense You not with my physical eyes, but with my spiritual ones. And yet, there seems to be a distance between us. I don't know if I've caused the rift by my selfishness and sin and envy of others or maybe my past mistakes or my guilt and regrets. But for whatever reason, You seem far away. And right now I need You close by. I'm reaching out to You the best I know how and You're still out of reach, so reach out to me, Father! Take my hand and touch my heart. Spread Your Spirit over my wounds and heal me from my lingering injuries of past mistakes. O Lord, cover my life like snow. The winter landscape of my soul is vast and frozen. Cover me with Yourself like a glistening blanket of snow from Your storehouses. Cover me with Your purity and Your holiness. The land cannot rise up to greet the snow, and I cannot rise up to greet You because my selfish tendencies hold me down. So fall upon me, O God! I will receive You. I will welcome You. That much I can do. I greet the snowflakes of Your grace as they fall upon my soul...

Remind me that my longing for You itself is evidence of Your presence. My desire for Your intimacy is a clue to Your work within my soul. Wherever my life leads me, remind me that You're already there waiting for me. However abandoned I may feel, remind me that You'll never, ever leave me. Despite the hatred in the world, remind me that nothing can separate me from Your love. However desperately I may seek You, remind me that You sought me first and I can only find You when I find myself in the center of Your love. Remind me that however lost I feel sometimes, I'm still on a journey. You are the path beneath my feet, the sun that lights my way, the companion by my side and the final destination that I seek. Remind me that it's not the depth of my longing that brings You close, but the length of Your grace extended down toward my heart...